Paper Boat for me

I've just watched a movie from Indonesia called "Perahu Kertas" or in English , Paper Boat.
The movie tell us about a feeling from two person who have been together as best friend aout twenty years. They hid their feeling and they're met again when each other have already had a couple.

Until the end, each other's couples realized that "love is not choosing the right one but love chose, you fell on it"

Yeah, a movie that adapted from a novel (with the same titl) by Dee. A simple old style movie but very inspiring people not to hide their feeling and never force ourselves to love others when your heart isn't for he/she. If you still pretend that everything will be okay and keep hide it from your couple, soon but sure you and him/her will hurt more than ever. Because you've hide it for a very long time, and when someone want to be serious with the relationship, and you can't accept, you will realized that everything is too late.

Maturity

17th does not always mean that you're mature
Can't be measure how mature someone is

I always wondering
How and why ...
How to be mature ?
Why can't i be mature ?

The random feeling
Cannot be desribe even with thousand words in dictionary

The feeling that hard to control
Hard to lose it

Everyone say that by the time
The maturity will be in yourself

Tired of being someone who is too moody
Hard to express what i really feel
Hard to tell someone
Because of afraid

I am afraid of a lot of things
Things that i don't even know what it is
Things that have not happened....

What should i do ?
Are every teenagers think the same thing when they were eighteen ?
Are they feel the same strange feelings like what i feel now ?

Is there someone in this world who can understand how it feel ? ...................