Maturity

17th does not always mean that you're mature
Can't be measure how mature someone is

I always wondering
How and why ...
How to be mature ?
Why can't i be mature ?

The random feeling
Cannot be desribe even with thousand words in dictionary

The feeling that hard to control
Hard to lose it

Everyone say that by the time
The maturity will be in yourself

Tired of being someone who is too moody
Hard to express what i really feel
Hard to tell someone
Because of afraid

I am afraid of a lot of things
Things that i don't even know what it is
Things that have not happened....

What should i do ?
Are every teenagers think the same thing when they were eighteen ?
Are they feel the same strange feelings like what i feel now ?

Is there someone in this world who can understand how it feel ? ...................